Sing Sing Sing

Its the eve of my twenty first birthday and I'm sitting in my room completely ecstatic about the upcoming events in my life, my birthday only being one event on the list. Unfortunately I don't have any midnight plans to ring in my first year of legal drinking. Hashtag, 'Merica. It's slightly sad but it was my own decision. Silly me. Anyways, these moments leading up to my golden birthday (it is my 21st on the 21st you know) I'm listening to a random, not-well-known musician who started following me on twitter probably in hopes that I would like her music and get her name a little more out there. She is pretty talented and I almost tweeted at her a kind affirmation letting her know that I hope she becomes a big artist one day. It led me to think about talents and in particular, my own gifts. I really, really love to sing. I feel a bit of remorse for not knowing how to play the guitar or piano or some instrument other than my vocal cords. I'll admit that there have been times where I've secretly hoped the Lord would miraculously give me a musical instrument talent. But if anyone knows me better, its my Creator and He is well aware I give up much too easily and a little lot of perseverance and discipline would only do me good. So maybe one of these days I'll actually get my hand-me-down guitar re-stringed and learn the darn thing. I am taking beginner piano for one credit in the Fall! Look! progress! Proud? Thank you, thank you. One day I will put these vocal cords to more use than following other peoples notes and lyrics.

As you've probably realized (and I've probably already mentioned this before) my dream job would be somewhere along the lines of speaking  about God's love and how he conquers our insecurities and the world can pose a big bag a lies that hide truth. As much as that truly is my dream job I also would love love love to do something with singing. I adore singing and I love to use my voice to praise the Lord (not only in praise and worship). I would love to use it as part of my ministry as well. Singing is just one of those things in my life that has always brought me back to center. My whole life if I ever was in a terrible mood singing always made me feel better. Even in my darkest days singing always freed me from my self hatred a little bit. The Lords given me such a gift thats played a huge role in my healing and I would love to use it to share His love with others.

Somewhere in the singing and speaking I wouldn't want to lose sight of writing as part of my ministry as well.

Stemmed off of my music musings I began to contemplate the other gifts the Lord has given me and I thought about my blog and writing. Now, I am constantly frightened to admit that I can write. (Here we go again, my fears ruining everything.) I am constantly afraid that other people will think that I write poorly. But you know what? I like to sing - so I sing. And people recognize the beauty in my voice that the Lord has blessed me with. I like to write - so I write. And I get As on school papers and people have enjoyed what I've written. So there. Take that fears! Alright, now that I've vented about my insecurities... I love this blog. Its had a lot of different themes. First feminine beauty, broadening to other testimonies and other inspirations, to traveling, back to inspirations, and now I'd like to attempt at simply sharing my thoughts - kind of like this post. This could be a disaster but I've obviously had a difficult time keeping up my blog so I'm trying to take a more relaxed route to see if I'll write more frequently. The Lord has given me this desire and this talent to scribble-scrabble my thoughts into the blogosphere so here I am world! Back in action! Wait - don't get too excited I have a very, very busy summer ahead of me. That's a topic for another post, another time.


Food for thought: "Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her" Luke 1:45